I let go with a yo-yo. I throw it as hard as I can. I see the ball in the distance thinking that's far enough. However, it always comes back. I want you gone but I want you close enough so that I can catch a glimpse of you. Sadly, no matter how far I throw you, I almost look forward to you coming back.
Maybe I like my yo-yo. I throw it, it goes on a trip, it comes back to me. I inspect it. Check it out. See how it's been. After I feel as if I've engaged long enough, I throw it again. That string still connecting us. I whistle while my yo-yo spins out and away from me. I kee-kee while it whirls at the end of the string. Before I know it, the yo-yo is back and we start the cycle again.
This time, it's all me. It's nothing you do. I just can't seem to find the way to completely disengage. Oh, I've mastered out of sight out of mind. I've becoming fluent in selective amnesia. I even dabble in trip or two to Egypt. Just can't figure out how to disengage.
It's so hard to resist. I still haven't learned how. Cut the string. Give the yo-yo away. Just disengage. I'm trying. Peace.