Monday, January 23, 2012

Taking a Page From the Ultimate Playbook

It's amazing how good God is; I marvel at how he places people, words, etc in our paths exactly when we need it. Yesterday's word at church was "Be Encouraged". Last week was rough and overall, these last 6 months have had some less than stellar moments. God knew I needed to hear that and I'm glad I did.

Last night, I was laying in bed and a huge smile came over my face. I could hear my mother saying one of her favorite phrases..."Hallelujah Anyhow". That was my mother's go-to phrase. No matter how bad any situation she was facing was, she would always lift up her hands and say hallelujah anyhow. I knew at that moment that all is going to be more than well. If my mother, while her body was being eaten by cancer, could still find the wherewithal to praise Him anyhow , surely I can do the same in less dire straits.

My mother prayed and prayed and prayed some more. She had faith for things that she will never physically see. Even if I never prayed in my life, I'd be living off the prayers my mother prayed. The way she prayed, my children will be living off the prayers their grandmother prayed. We got reserves like the 10th man off the bench.

After that epiphany, I'm fully adopting my mother's mantra. I know it won't be easy because that level of faith and trust takes discipline. Shoot, we can't praise Him when we stub our toe sometimes. However, it can be done and I know the results are going to be amazing. Peace.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Bob, Solo, Raising, Springs Eternal Aren't the Only Hope

I hope that so far I've been a great girlfriend to you. I hope that I've treated you with the utmost respect. I hope that I've shown you kindness and affection. I hope that my words have been truthful even if they haven't always been sweet. I hope that when you think of your future, I'm right there beside you.

I hope that you are thankful that all the ones before me didn't work out. I hope you are thankful that all the ones before you didn't work out. I hope you know how lucky you are and how luckier I am. I hope that you know that I think about you all the time. I hope you know that some days I'm scared. Not scared of losing you, but scared of not being everything you need, want, and desire of me.

I hope that you know that I will go to bat for you. I hope that you know that I'll guard your heart like Fort Knox. I hope you know that you can trust me with your fears and your insecurities knowing that I wouldn't dare use them against you. I hope you know that you can trust me with all your dreams, goals, aspirations knowing that I will support them as if they were my own.

I hope you think of this distance not as an obstacle but as an opportunity to get to know each other on a deeper level. I hope that you know while these miles suck, we're building a foundation that won't be shaken even by light years.

I hope you know that I don't have all the answers. I hope you know that I don't have a manual on being the best girlfriend ever. I hope you know how awesome and beautiful you are. I hope you know how much you mean to me. I hope you know that I love you....scratch that, let me tell you...I love you. Peace.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

I Shouldn't Had Left You Without a Dope Blog to Read Through

All late and stuff, but Merry New Year! It has been a long time since I blogged, but good things come to those who wait and all that jazz. Since I can't pick one topic to jump back in with, I'll just ramble and make it work.

The relationship - Things are going quite well. Rosalita and I spent close to a month together all over these United States. Finally got that first disagreement out of the way. I need to work on my disagreement skills. I've always been the type to choose to drop it rather than risk having a blow-up. I'm learning that getting upset isn't a bad thing. Even in the best of relationships, there's bound to be heated discussions.

She's so loving and supporting. I know that she has my back at all times. There's nothing good she wants for herself that she doesn't want for me. It's so amazing what you find when you're not looking. This distance blows but it has allowed us to really get to know one another and build a solid foundation.

Kwanzaa - I've never celebrated it in my life, heck I really didn't know anything about it. Rosalita's family not only celebrates it but basically runs the city wide celebrations. I thought it was hella sexy watching her lead the various celebrations. I learned quite a bit and I will say the emancipation bread is frickin' delicious.

Now I wouldn't be me if I didn't go there: TONS of bohos at the celebrations. You know the "answer the phone with 'peace', Egyptian musk wearing, incense #9 burning, swine is the debil, poetry spittin', so Afrocentric our kids have to be homeschooled" types. Don't get me wrong I love being black and all that good stuff, but the bohos take it way too far. My eyes swelled with tears of joy when I saw this boho chick with her white boyfriend.

What I learned over my Christmas vacation:

* I will have to find another airline for my visits to Ohio. Southwest flew me all over the world. Why fly me to the east coast to get to the Midwest?

* I'm a sulker. I knew I had a hard time hiding disdain, but I wasn't aware I sulked. Working on it.

* Baby drag queens are blockers. LOL.

* Old folks dip out after the champagne toast on New Years. Full crowd at 11:30 pm and crickets at 12:17 am.

* You can actually get decent Mexican food in the WHA served by real Mexicans.

Any resolutions, LI? Nope. I'm just gonna continue to have faith and trust God in all aspects of my life. If I do that, I will be blessed immensely in all ventures, relationships, and endeavors. Peace.